If you read my last post, you know that Thursday was a really sad day for us. So was Friday, and Saturday, and Sunday. My son actually said, “Our house doesn’t even feel like a home anymore.” We’re getting there though. We have cried a little less each day.
In addition to sadness, there have been glimmers of good. It started when we took a walk just a couple of hours after we put Blue down. I took this photo and noted that it had been gray and cloudy all day until we decided to take a walk to Blue’s favorite pond.
The next day, I was looking at the picture again, when I suddenly saw Blue in the clouds.
See her? With her tennis ball and shark fin angel wing? My friend, Melisa, who once wrote a book for children about the loss of a pet, told me that I would start seeing signs everywhere.
On Friday, my daughter’s teacher was telling a story about a book she had just read. She was moved to tears by the death of the main character’s 14 year old dog.
That same evening, my husband was watching a fishing show. He fishes, but he never watches fishing shows. Well, that’s not true, we both watch Deadliest Catch, but not really for the fishing; more for the train wreck of chain-smoking, crab-boat crews. Anyway, he was watching this fishing show that kept making reference to catching something called a “Blue Dog.”
And, in church yesterday, the homily was about being reunited with those you love; all of us restored, whole and without pain.
Thank you, Blue. I hope you keep sending us messages.
Also, if you could keep those messages off of the bottom of my shoe, I would be really grateful.
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Vicki
I absolutely can’t take it… So touching.
meleah rebeccah
Awwwwwwwwww! And ZOMG I totally see her and with her tennis ball! xoxoxoxo
Melisa
YES. I LOVE IT. I’m so happy for you.
I forgot that I posted what I wrote about my signs online. Don’t read it right now if it’s going to be too hard, but whenever you’re ready the link will be here.
http://rememberruby.blogspot.com/2008/01/looking-for-her-everywhere-finding-her.html
I hope you have been comforted by these signs. It makes me smile, thinking about it.
Tara R.
She will always be with you, watching over you. I love the cloud, that’s amazing.
Shelley A
Just found your website on Pioneer woman. It must have been fate. We lost our Chesapeake bay retriever in January. Our beloved Jake. He went into renal failure we loved him more than life itself for the 9 wonderful years we had him in our lives. I know exactly how you feel. It does get easier but still after 4 months I expect him to be waiting at the window when we come home. I still cry when I think of him it was nice to talk about it. Thanks for listening.
Amie
And Saturday night? You were sitting under a Labatt Blue sign.
Momo Fali
See?
Muffintopmommy
Totally believe in signs. And what a beautiful dog.
I love the pictures and hope things get better with each new day.
Liz
Beautiful post, Momo! Thanks for sharing the pics and thoughts about your sweet dogboy, Blue. {{{hugs}}}
Canadian Dad
I’m really sorry to hear about your dog. I’ve lost a couple too and the hurt tends to last more than one would think.
That cloud image would have probably freaked me out though. I don’t like the thought of ghosts watching me and stuff….I’m a scaredy cat!
Really great post too!
Amy
Blue is such a beautiful dog. She’ll be with you forever . . . in big ways, in small ways. I can’t tell you my loving pets names or you would know all of my “passwords,” and you’d be able to steal the $28.09 I have in my checking account!
Jessica
I’m so sorry. I had to put down a dog of mine many years ago.I swore never again would I own a dog so I wouldn’t have to experience that.
Might I introduce you to Teddy? Our golden/corgi mix….
I’m a sucker.
big hugs to you all
Liz Elle
That’s so true about seeing signs of Blue, and you’ll continue to see signs of her. My cat Halo have been gone for 3 years and whenever I see the word halo/Halo or a cat or dog that looks like her I take it as a sign from her — saying “Hi.”
As always, great post…
wifemothereventplanner
I am so very sorry. What a touching post – and the one before it. I love your writing (and living!) style. Humor is a great, therapeutic, lightening way to go about loss and life.
I believe in signs too, although mine usually lead me to some sort of food. I’m new to your work but look forward to catching up and tuning in!
alaina
So sorry for your loss. I have three dogs and can’t imagine my life without them. A loss of a best friend is truly a terrible thing.
Missives From Suburbia
Oh, my friend…I know this loss and I know it all too well, and I also know the joy of those signs. They make me ache, still, even after several years and several dogs. But I’ll take the ache, because the happiness those sweet pups brought me far outweighs the pain of their absences.
Blue wants you to heal. They always want their families to heal.
xo
Misty
I love this post! Last year when we lost Makaila it was like that… And it was healing. And sad. But mostly healing…
katy
I am grateful that I saw you over on ZDub’s. My dog is driving me crazy today. I loved reading this. I love dogs.
TB at BlueCollarWorkman
I thought this post was sad, but I wasn’t completely moved…until I got to the picture of Blue. ANd suddenly I was reminded of my own faithful companions who’ve passed, and of the dog we have now,Lady, and how sad I’ll be when she meets her maker. Man, it’s tough, really really tough, to lose a dog, I”m really sorry for your loss.
Always Home and Uncool
That is an awesome photo and post. Way to help out, Blue.
Missy
I practically jumped out of my comfy couch seat at the picture of your beautiful Blue. We have Blue’s twin in our 12 year old Molly girl right here. Hopefully, your sadness is lessened each day that you have another memory of your time together. And here’s to no new messages on the bottom of your shoes. Loved that!
Haute Americana
So sorry to hear about your loss. Labradors are wonderful animals. We lost our yellow lab Chloe a few years ago and I am just so grateful that I got to spend her life with her.
Deb
So very sorry for your loss! Dogs are such an amazing member of our families and it is so hard to lose them. I have had your experience several times and your heart just breaks every single time! Blue is forever in all of your hearts & will be waiting on the other side to play ball again!! Sending much strength for the hard times ahead!
elisacanada
I am so glad to read that you also experienced the signs from your belived dog.
My dog Scott passed away 2 month ago. The week after he passed, I receive 3 special signs from him. I did not want to talk about it with anybody thinking everybody would say it is just coicidence but really it can not be just that.
I am happy to see that I am not the only one who experienced this.
God bless our beloved pets
ElisaCanada